From ok to 56k

Tuesday, October 2, 2007

I probably made a wrong decision.
The story started about a week ago. At that time, I felt a little bit physically uncomfortable, but it would have been okay actually if I had still not tackled it. However, I don't know until now why I went to see a doctor. I don’t know whether the doctor wrongly prescribed to me or the nurse gave me other patient prescription to me. I just felt worse after took the drugs. I always felt dizzy. Sometime, I felt hot, but, sometime, I felt cold. Sometime, I experienced unstable heartbeat even if I just sit there. Sometime, I found that my hands could not hold a thing well because they oscillated automatically, like Parkinson disease. However, all of these were not the main thing which affected me most. The main trouble was that the drugs made me think “56k-ly”. The speed of thinking at that time was one tenth to normal, especially for new stimulus. For example, when ones come in front of me and take to me, I cannot respond them immediately and I need about 2 second to recognize that there is a person in front of me and I need at least 2 more second to think about what he said even if it is simple. In short, I did want to die at that time and I would rather I had not seen the doctor.